My last article was on mid April and then I went silent, both here and online, but also for a short time in reality. Never did I realise that the minor headaches, the side tiny occasional aches, was melanoma making lesions through one lung, through the lymphatic system and through my brain. The first time I knew was at A&E when I knew what I wanted to say, but it was obvious the lines were not working. And quickly I lost any knowledge of what was going on, trusting a team to work out what was going on and how they could calm my broken brain, stop it from getting worse, and bring me back as best they could. I’m aware of the kindest people, from every level, was part of a team to bring me back, as well as looking after my family who went through watching me at my worst, not sure how I’d come out. I honestly think I had it easy!
Three weeks in hospital and then came a home time in which there was an entire team, headed by the Cardiff oncology team who decided a treatment of immunology, which tomorrow I have the second round of, to help my own immune realise that the melanoma lesions are not needed, and start to help me fight them off.
What we don’t know is how much the damage to my brain is going to be permanent but it’s quite clear that there is an issue with my sight. And I’m wobbly and slow on my feet, as well as sometimes not getting quite the right messages to my hands, or to my speech. It’s getting better but I need to be patient. Not my natural state-there’s a lot of change.
So I hope to start writing here from the garden and what that means to me having that huge change and may and will continue to change. Nature and gardens are looking after me, from the gardens in the hospitals to our garden, and photos of plants and gardens sent from friends and colleagues.
So till next time!!
It sounds like you’ve been through a tough time. Thinking of you and sending all my love and healing vibes.
Sending you very best wishes and healing thoughts through your treatment time. I don’t know you but I have enjoyed your posts over some time now. Much love xxx